I am my pop's 1981 Pontiac Bonneville...

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I feel so freakin blah today...my sickness has moved up a level, forcing me to take some roh-beet-too-sin every 4-6 hours, not to exceed 4 doses in a day, which I RARELY do. This sucks major doodoo man, PLUS there's errands to run for the parentals today. They know I don't feel so good, but they have no choice, mom can't drive really far, and pop of course can't, so that leaves it up to me...man I feel run down. I'm trying not to mope around w/ this sickness but it's tough too when you feel so tired and out of it. All you can do is help your body combat the illness I guess...well, Here's to getting better!!!

News News News...
Why does EVERY freakin channel have to broadcast the war? Like one place is gonna have a better angle than the other? It's the same shit man, talking talking talking, lil updates here and there...I wanna watch some regular TV!!! Granted I have cable, but it's the principle dammit! Why can't they have like one channel dedicated to all of these updates...like a collective effort at bringing us the most up-to-date 411 on this whole war business. Or better yet...put up a "War Channel" then, you wouldn't have to wonder like what this channel was all about...oh duh, it's about war. Hmmm, I wonder what's going on in Iraq today, hey pop, can you put on the war channel please? That would just make everything so much more simple...

One of my friends told me about Energy Healing today. Apparently, she was feeling on the blah side a few days ago and some dude offerred to give her some energy healing...her body drew energy from his body and WHAM! She was feeling a lot better....he even gave her mind energy to deal with all the things going on in her life...pretty crazy. It might be in her mind, but that's a pretty awesome concept...it branches out even further from self-healing...we can heal each other...that's pretty cool. Man, do I need some of that right now...

I think sometimes that people overestimate my strength...I mean, it's really flattering that people would think that of you as to want to depend on you for almost anything, but it's almost flattering to a fault. What if I overestimated my own capabilities because of their overestimations, thinking that I can do it all, but fail miserably? What if I am so over-extended or spread out so thin I totally fall apart. Okay, maybe I'm reaching a little here, but I just really feel worn down sometimes, and I think some people overlook that. I think I just need some Jay time for a while...one day even...I don't get enough of that.

"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
-John Gardner